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Study leader reference - not a definitive answer
Question 6
After the first Dutch conference, Sahir prayed, “I want to go to the world, but don’t let me go too far”—what does that prayer reveal about God’s mercy and human double-mindedness, and how should a church respond to someone who is attracted to the truth but afraid to surrender?
Another way to ask: After the conference, Sahir prayed, “I want to go to the world, but don’t let me go too far.” What does that show about God’s mercy and our mixed hearts, and how should a church help someone who wants truth but fears fully giving in?
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Direct Answer
His prayer shows a divided heart: he was drawn to the Gospel but fearful to “give myself,” yet he still appealed to God’s restraint and mercy; the transcript implies the church should respond with patient discipleship, community, and practical care, not pressure.
- At the 2001 conference he felt warmth and saw people “praying and hugging… sharing tears,” calling it “heaven on earth.”
- He heard for the first time, “you must be born again,” and the message “touched me very deeply.”
- He admits fear of surrender: “I was very scared to do this big step… not 100% sure where it will end.”
- He prayed: “I want to go to the world, but don't let me go too far.”
- He says afterward it “cool down” partly because he lacked ongoing help: he wanted “real discipleship and fellowship… I didn't have… people who received me to teach me more.”